God Of All Things...

I've been meaning to write this post for a long long time now, about four months ago. However, I did not post it. Maybe, because of my views not being socially accepted. After all, its God right? The most sensitive topic you can ever touch. Its sure to ruffle one or two feathers, outrage somebody and, in extreme case, propel somebody to come to my house and burn it down ( : P ) However, I won't be writing anything very controversial, because my views about God are not controversial at all.

My early memories of my experiences with god are pretty limited. They consist of me going to the temple, praying with utmost honesty, always praying for my family first and me later, always God fearing and never ever questioning the very idea or concept of God. Slowly, as I grew into a teenager ( ninth standard to be precise), my views about God begun to take shape. I rarely visited temples now, I hardly prayed ( but when I did, I put my family first at that time too ) and  I started to challenge the very idea and concept of God. I became less God fearing, and began to question everything that God had ' asked us to do'. I searched for answers to my questions, but I got none. My belief in God deteriorated even further.

So what led to all this? What were the things that got me to an absurd (some might say), socially unacceptable             conviction ? Frankly speaking, I find it hard to recollect now why I actually made up such a conviction. However, as I think about it I can figure out, not-so-clearly, why I made up that conviction. ( I will not say whether the conviction was entirely wrong, but I do agree ( with all humility) that I was partially wrong )

During my teen years, I came across a concept called " The Law Of Attraction ". Now I won't explain the concept, because it will take me at least ten posts to explain that theory. In a nut shell, it was a  theory that enabled me to obtain anything I wanted. I tried out  the theory, and it worked out magnificently for me. Now, to be completely honest, many of us, while praying to God, only ASK for what they want. Now, a teenager wants a lot of things in life, and praying for those things was one of the ways in which one thinks they can get them. Through The Law Of Attraction, I got many of the things that I wanted, which obviously made me happy. The fact that whatever I asked from God, I almost never got, coupled with The Law Of Attraction giving me almost everything that I wanted, my inclination towards God started declining. ( For your information, the Law Of Attraction, in no way suggests anything about existence or belief in God. It was just a misinterpretation on my part)

In my defense, I was just a fifteen year old at that time, and my views were entirely wrong, and now two years on, I do not feel the same anymore about God.

My father would often laugh about my views and would just remark one thing -  " Your views will change as you mature." And they did. In that year itself, my views about God changed. I stopped becoming an atheist, but I did not become a follower. I was, and am still somewhere in the middle. The place where you know about the existence of God, but also the place where your aware and appalled how the name of God is being misused by humans.

For me, God is divine. The only presence of God that can be felt on Earth, is maybe through the teachings of God, which are 'conveyed' through  religion. I put 'conveyed' in inverted commas, because of the fact that they are not! It appalls me, the way in which people misuse the name of God for their own purposes. If you trace back to any mythology and read it properly, God never ever made his own religion. It was the people who followed the Gods that made religions. How can something made by mortals (religion), that is never ever propagated  by God himself, be the way to reach God? If you actually look at what all you do, which is in accordance to Religion, you will see that it doesn't have any connection to God at all.

How do animal sacrifices have any connection to God? How does, donating money to priests or pandits, have anything to do with God? Isn't money a worldly thing, and doesn't giving money to GOD, mean disrespect to God? How does having to go the temple or church have anything to do with God? Can't you pray at home? Isn't God in your heart?

Am not targeting any religion here, am just pointing out that ALL religions are flawed and manipulated to suit the needs of a few. I do not say everything that religion propagates is false. I have the utmost respect for all the Holy Scriptures, and I believe only they should be followed.

I am just against the idea of Religion. I mean, look what religion has done to the world? The Crusades, Hindu- Muslim tension and so much more. God never wanted his name, to be the reason of terror, fights and war. That is what we, as humans, have done to the Holy Institution of God. And that is the reason why I do not believe in religion. For me, its just causing more problems than it is solving. Having said that, I also believe in the Holy Scriptures, as those are the words of God, which cannot be changed or manipulated.

P.S- My views will not be accepted by many. Maybe my views will change with time, as I mature. However, this is what I feel at this moment in life. And it is something that hurts me, which is the reason why I posted it.