Kicked In The Rear....!!!!

I don't know what I am going to right today. However, I feel this need to write something. I am shocked, I am angry, I am a lot of things, but it doesn't really matter. All this is because, as my title says, Life Has Kicked Me In The Rear. A year's hard work has gone waste. I don't know what I did wrong. And I know that I deserved more than what I got. (I am talking about my SSC results) Everyone knew that. But then they say, with hard work, you also need luck. It rarely happens that this luck is not with someone, and it happened with me. I am crying foul, but its of no use. You may find me defending my marks, and putting the whole blame on the system, and you may be thinking that I am a coward to do that. But believe me I am not. I introspected and introspected before I put the blame on lady luck. And I found nothing lacking in my efforts. As my results came in, I felt this dissatisfaction about my marks. Not because I had got less, but because I had deserved more. But God has his plans, and I am a firm believer that whatever happens, happens for good. I learnt a lesson that day, which everyone will learn, sooner or later in life- Even if you work hard, you don't always get the reward. I opened my Gmail account, and there lay a mail by my father which was perfect for me, and I needed it at that instant. I don't know whether you'll have read it but I am pasting it-

One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I t ook very good care of them.
I gave them light.
I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would
not quit." He said..
"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared
to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6
months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."
He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".
"I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others.."
He said.
"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?"
I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.

This came at a perfect time for me. And it just gave me the will to go on. After all, life is full of ups and downs. I gave the first test of life, and I went down. Which means that I can only go up now!!!!!

The Monsoon Is Here...

The previous template of my blog was becoming monotonous. There was this new template thing, so I tried that, and I guess my blog looks better now!!!

Anyway, the title of this post is deceiving. It may sound that I am very happy, now that the monsoon is here, everything is green, I can play in the water, get wet in the rain, eat hot hot pokaras while it is raining outside. However, I am far from happy. And looking at the posts on Facebook, I might be the only one who does not enjoy the rains. Yes, that's right, I don't like the rains! It is like not liking Mango (which I love by the way).

Anyway I will explain my paranoia. You see, a year ago, I was also a normal school-going kid who of course loved the rains. I never even used to take an umbrella or wind cheater with me, in order to get wet. (By the way, I am still normal, except that my horizons have widened) So the rains were exhilarating, enjoyable before, because I did not have to travel much, as my home was just 10 minutes away. At that time, I was a fan of the rains too. But not anymore.

My destination has changed, my journey has changed. I no longer go to my school, which is 10 minutes away, but I go to my classes which are an hour away. And you will never be able to imagine the agony, that this hour gives when it is raining. Believe me, travelling in the rain is not at all a good experience. You aboard the train, drenched in the rain. People in the train are the same as you, and you just have to stick to a person, which makes you go "EEW!!!"(You don't have a choice. You go to first class or second class, it will be the same story)

Leaving the travelling part aside, when I, or almost everyone moves out of their houses, its for a long long time. (6 hours normally) And getting wet in the rain while going to work or classes is even worse. If you get wet while coming back, then its okay. Because you can always take a warm bath in your house. However, if you get wet while going to your office, classes or college, then its a pain-in-the-wrong-place. You will have to spend the rest of the day in your uncomfortable and wet clothes, in the air conditioned class room, which won't leave you in a good shape of mind.

Taking umbrellas or wind cheaters is not much of a help, everyone knows that. Nothing in this world can save you from Mumbai rains. So if you are gonna get out of the house while its raining, prepare to get wet. Of course, if you are going by a rickshaw, to a short distance, then you will enjoy the rain. However, if you are a long distance traveler, like 99% of the people, it won't be a joy ride for you.

So I guess, the rains can be enjoyed only if you are at home, playing football, or if you are one of the fortunate ones, whose work place is close to home. (Believe me you are very fortunate)

I love the rains too, and I get wet if I get the chance and if I don't have to go any place important. However, the rains become a hindrance, when you travel, because we all know what the rains do to our transport systems.

P.S- This is my personal opinion, and I am sure many people will differ from my opinion. Most of the people love the rains. Even I do, but not while I am travelling!!!!

A Mixed Day.....

I woke up in the morning with a strange feeling. A not-very-happy-feeling. Yesterday's day had not been the best one. I had my classes test, and I don't think I did very well. This after putting in hours of efforts for the past week. Felt like a slap on my face. However, I had decoded my mistake and felt better then. Getting back to my morning, I woke up forcibly, even though I wanted to sleep and straightaway sat on facebook. Yes, that's right even without having a bath. I checked my account, chatted with some of my friends, none of which helped to lighten my mood.

I had my classes at 3.30 pm. So I had lunch and got ready to go to my classes. Even as I ventured out into the afternoon sun, my mind was wandering elsewhere.... What had gone wrong?? Why did I not realize my mistake earlier??

These things, wandering in my mind, I involuntarily went to the station and sat in one of the trains. The train was unusually crowded, so I did not even get a place to sit in the train. The afternoon was getting to me, and by the time I reached my classes, my T-shirt was wet, and my jeans was not very comfortable to sit. The lecture in classes were Physics and Chemistry. Physics, I love, but the teacher is a bit of a 'khaduus'. Doesn't even let us laugh. The first lecture passed away, with my mind wandering about from the results of the test, to what I would be updating on my Facebook status.(This is one of the reasons why I deactivated my account on Facebook!!!) Surprisingly, the lecture was good and interesting as something related to physics had been started. (Vectors, if you care) So atlast, I had a subject, which I adored, because for the past month, Physics had been as good as maths. (i.e BAD). Next was the Chemistry lecture. My mood was better, as I tried to deviate my mind from the test(Forgive me for Physics' words ) However, the name of Chemistry was enough to benumb my mind. The teacher for Chemistry was very good, but I think, making Chemistry, an interesting subject, is a herculean task. A task which the teacher accomplished in the next 2 hours. Yes, that's right. I don't remember what he started, that I liked so much, but I liked it anyway. It was the first time, I had actually not looked at the watch. As the teacher explained Bohr's Model Of Atom(I know, not very interesting for you) everything blacked out and simultaneously, a cheer passed across the building. THE POWER WAS OUT. We waited for 5 minutes, as chants of "Leave us" grew. In 5 minutes, they left us. However, I was having mixed feelings. Come on, it was my first good Chemistry lecture. Was I happy, or was I sad?? Then I thought, " Come on man, you are not that big a nerd. Get a life!!!"

Our early departure was actually a curse in disguise(yeah I invented it). The time was 8.30pm. Not a good time to board a train. As we reached the station, we did not get any happier, as the station was fully crowded. As the train docked into the station, I got ahead of the others. As the passengers alighted, I saw lots of empty space in the train, A Glimmer Of Light!!! I forced my way into the train, and enjoyed the tunes of Bryan Adams. However, my mind was still wandering. I was going along with more than 500 people in the train that day. Did anyone of them have a day with feelings, as mixed as mine????

P.S- This is a very old post, that I did not publish before, because I was bored.

P.P.S- This is a different post that I am trying out, very different from my other posts. So please do comment, if you liked it or no.